Discipline and the Internet

For the last several months, I committed myself to keeping up with the blog. My original idea was to update it once a week, but I suddenly had so much I wanted to write that I ended up challenging myself to three times a week – Monday, Wednesday and Friday. Somehow, I managed to keep up with it, even during a very difficult loss.

However, as work at my day job increased, and commitments at home become more and more pressing, I started to develop a shift in my writing goals. Somehow (at the worst possible time, perhaps?), I began coming up with more and more long-term writing ideas and had less inclination to spend that precious writing time on blog pieces. It’s still important to me to keep up a weekly commitment to the blog, but now I would love to put some of that time into my long-term projects – otherwise, as I’m finally realizing, these projects just aren’t going to happen.

This realization was made even clearer to me when I lost my home internet for over a week. I wish I could say I got more writing done without the distraction of internet surfing, but instead, that extra time went to my home commitments. Regardless, it was obvious how much more productive I was without the internet. It brought me back to a simpler time, when I was 17, and had inherited my first laptop from my uncle – that was two years before the internet came to our home, and all I did on that computer was write, write, write. And as you can imagine, I got a lot of writing done back then!

And what did I do when I visited my mother and got to use her internet connection? I went straight back to surfing. An hour into it, I stopped and asked myself, “What am I getting from this? This is such a huge waste of time. Why aren’t I writing?”

I am not making any hard rules for myself regarding the blog, other than that I’d like to try to update it at least three times a month. Other than that, it’s just going to flow with my schedule and creative needs.

I think the more overarching question for me, at this point, is: How do I rethink my relationship with the internet at this point in my life? How can I make it work for me, instead of being a slave to it?